Fiz@W3rK

to my friends :

world can be cruel to us sometimes. yet it gave us other things to cherish. cherish our life my friends. i understand some of my friends are in pain.. in despair.. heartbroken… problems… depression and all the cruelty of the world that could fall upon us. Nothing better than God to ask for help. I as a friend could only help to give advice. nothing more… but i won’t stop supporting u guys. Since i was small, my friends are like a family to me. Their pain and problems are like mine.

My friends, we never know how our life is. only god knows. we could only plan for future. we could only pray that what we planned came true. Problems is just like a seasoning to life.. without it your life is good… with it your life may gets better or worst.. Therefore my friends, cherish your life 1st before your problems. problems do have solutions… we could solve it together if you want to…. yet happiness in life don’t have solutions. be happy with people around you. i admit that i am not that successful myself. tiap kali ada problem mcm beruk masuk bandar.. ehhee.. well.. This is me.. my view of life and problems.. just like seasoning in food.. .

-Fiz@w3rK cr8tion-

Juz wanna say, i need to find myself…. my own self… need to find my dreams… need to find what i’m missing in my life… need to find sumting to begins… need to find sumthing to make my life usefull.. for else…

my life just started to be so damn complicated. i need a break from all of this. I really need a place to relax and enjoy.. argh!!!!

Never i would suggest myself to be in a big mess. Never i would even say that i want to be a dreamer. but then should i be here? in this situation? still i’ll just be there. i won’t be nothing more than what i will be. for i just a cause of a because. true it is that is all i could do rite now. Truthfully i’m not even sad about it and i don’t care even a thing. then, what am i doing actually? The question that i have no answer.
Shall i see what will be tommorow may not seems the right thing to do. shall i be what i want i would regret it cause it’s just not me. shall then i seek the truth. shall then i should be induce by something to be something so that it will be everything. i want what i want for myself. then i don’t want the thing to happen. my life may not be as simple as anyone. so as not to complicated my life. i shall lose the sumthing that i want….

Just because…………….

sikda pa2 yang mok dipadah… rah cc nunggu org abis main dota.. next week ada assignment highway mok di antar.. cis.. dah la lom polah… hm.. neway.. semoga my life will be happpppyyyyy like dolok gik.. kawan jak la tempat aku happy kinek tok.. la..la..la… dan aku dalam dilema.. dilema yang sukar untuk mengetahui kesimpulan yang akan timbul.. apa kan daya.. kita tok just manusia biasa..

thanks to all my frens who wishes me happy bday… my day wasn’t my day when i receive a msg from sum1 in the past.. maybe u mean no harm, but then ur cold too cold for me to handle..for the rest of the day, my mood derailed away.. considering that i always been msging with the great wall… wish of gawai seems ntg.. insanely but true.. that i’m still hurt.. what do women wants actually? love? caring?faith? soul? u opened my wound again. i guess dr house din do his job well.. hahaha… somehow i know that if i wish u happy bday on your bday u won’t say thank u.

but then, i do njoyed my few days off for being differently sicko..and i really mean that and being a dumb ass.. coz sumhow i know and i feel that i’m just being foolish.. hahaha… well.. who really cares right.. thanks again to every1 yang sanggup turun padang bersidang malam tadi.. and the day before and thank you for being such a fren to me.. and i do enjoy ur company.. say, nasib sikda telur.. hahahahaha…selamat i u..

today, 2 june 2007 another person i know is going to get married.. yosh.. dah 3 org yang dikenali berkahwin.. err wait.. make that 5… this year alone.. actually for the past 6 months.. tiap bulan ada org kawin.. best juak la.. dapat makan nasi minyak.. kekeke.. makan free bah.. i on jak.. ngarhahaha… bila gik kita mok merasa betol sik.. bah.. tommolo i can eat all i want.. hahaha… best gik.. nyumm..nyumm.. siapa mok ekot? kita makan jak.. mun ada kenduri kawin gik, ajak2 lah saya tok.. dapat juak makan nasi minyak.. hehehe.. peace adios mushchahaha..

err… maybe its not to late to say.. i’m on holiday!! hehehe… jom klua nangga wayang, lepak minum, lumba haram, pergi bbq kat pantai or matang.. mun sik jom kita convoi gie picnic kat ranchang pool.. sama2… mengejar mimpi… segalanya akan terjadi.. akulah perosak lagu dan segalanya.. ehehehe…caiyok!!

a day change it all,
everything just seems lost and fall,
nothing survive for the day,
and the pain won’t get away,

little would she knows,
the unbearable stings that she had cause,
as i had promise her an eternity love,
and thus now i only had my ownself,

many says be strong,
and i would say whats wrong?
for me to get her again,
for not a mere shred of love’s friendly bond.

some say i should relax and stay away,
it’s hard coz i’m not the kind of person,
to give up easily and runs away,

none says that i should be with her,
others just silents and lend an ear,
now i would say am i made for her?
for fear i say did none like us being together?

true it is said,
sometimes u have to let it go,
so that she/he can be happy or so,
but i don’t undrstand the sudden end,
for all the years that it stands.

don’t worry i’m not fragile as every1 see,
i’m a just a person who had lost someone that so important than my own life, someone that i promise that i’ll take care of, someone that i try to cherish every second her hearts beats, i don’t give my promise to anyone just like that, and i still remember my promise to my frens.. so.. this is sometng for nothin.. if u get what i mean.

this week it has been a hell for me.. i stressed out to much that i barely can stand it myself. first of all.. its the full assignment week. 2 labs report need to be passed up by monday. turun nait turun nait.. alhamdullillah selesai. assignment2 yg berlambak yg perlu passed up by friday.. alhamdulillah juak.. lecturer gave us the mid term holiday to finish up. dah lah my phone rosak and i was phone less..  err ada ka word ya? ehhee.. neway.. connector kat flip putus. damn.. susah mau contact orang.. lebih2 lagi ada masalah lain. guys.. i’m no longer with her… may allah guide me from this week of hell.. hanya allah tempat memohon pertolongan kinek tok.. still.. i’m in the deepest craziest most unthinkable dugaan now.. during this holiday diharapkan eeverything will come as it should be…